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Originally Posted by Rockchick26  It is true that some people do accept misfits but its kinda like this,for every one person that accepts you there are like 50 who don't. And when one of them is a mother or father,that REALLY doesn't help. And you can have all the confidence in the world and then some people judge you,it's hard to stay strong. |
I want you, and sbdiane, to know that I hear you and I can totally see where you are coming from. It is extremely painful when your own parents judge you or think you odd. I'm not sure if you believe me, but although I've had a couple of good friends throughout my life, I was pretty much an outcast too. I don't wear make-up or care much for girly things, I look pretty average, I was a "drama freak" (that's the lovely name kids in high school had for those of us who took theater). My friends were the misfits, people somewhat on the fringes. If you're one of the regular kids, they will look or act odd to you, but when you get to know these people, they are witty and cool and smart and on and on. In fact, when you think about it, the ones living the status quo are really the lonely ones, as they don't even know themselves and therefore cannot ever really connect on a deep level with anyone else (or fail to realize the existing connection we all have).
What I'm trying to say is, there are over 6 billion people in the world. The majority of them will never even know you. Of the ones who know you, not everyone is going to like or understand you. BUT, who cares? Be proud to be who you are. Make connections with people and don't let fear of how they see you stop you. I think that there are very few people in the world who are doomed to live a solitary existence. The majority of us isolate ourselves by our choices or perceptions. Sometimes, we are the ones who prejudge others...by assuming they will reject us as a misfit.
I was once so lonely I tried to kill myself, or wanted to anyway and got so far as putting the rope around my neck and pulling it tight before I collapsed into a ball of tears. I feel for where you are and what you're going through. I do. But at the same time, from this angle, I know that we have another option and I hope that you will see it too and hook into that connection that's running through all of us.