Ok, I know I'm a freaking broken record with this, but get thee to Byron Katie. Loving What Is is a great tool. Doing The Work was one of the two things that helped me the most...the other being Angela's coaching.
I have a boyfriend, no kids. And I want kids, but that doesn't mean that if I don't ever have them that I'm some kind of misfit. Who gives a crap what some parts of society tell you is "normal"?! When you are comfortable with yourself it won't matter.
I do know that loneliness is debilitating sometimes, but go out and make the effort. There are millions of misfits in society, and lots of the "normal" people hang out with misfits too and accept them totally. I think in this instance you may be cutting yourself off from people due to your own beliefs. I suggest doing a trial on changing your mindset about who you are and how other people see you.
I'm sorry if I'm wrong or come across as not understanding. But I really felt the same way when I was younger, and even now notice lots of ways in which I don't really fit in, BUT I've found that I am more loved and accepted than I let myself believe. A lot of the isolation was caused by me.
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