thanks for the support guys.. I felt such pressure on my chest yesterday morning... my heart and throat chakras are generally overactive.. so I need to learn to control this too...
yes.. Pequod, I think you are right.. my needs aren't being met.. and I have accepted that for a great many years.
Spookie.. I have read Men are from Mars.. but this doesnt feel like one of those "rubber-band" periods... this just feels like he is oblivious to my needs.. and
I dont know how to communicate them in a way that he will understand and respond. <-- just articulated what I've been trying to get out for days!!! haha
I think I do this because in the beginning of our relationship I knew he just wasnt capable of giving me everything I needed.. but also in saying that.. I did need to sort out a lot of **** on my own in order to resolve a lot of my inner issues.. which have now been dealt with.
I think it may be that I am moving forward now in such a positive way, I want to help him come along too... but I guess he really needs to do this on his own...
carenk: You're so right... if I can see it.. then there's nothing hurting me from saying.. There it is on the table etc.. but if I'm in the middle of cooking or doing something.. I've started asking him to wait til I'm done. Same as when I'm on the net.. and he will request from his throne on the lounge "Can you look up this and that" and now.. I just say.. you can look it up yourself when I'm done in 5 minutes if you like! hahah it's working!
he really is such a wonderful man... I love him so much... I have a lot of trust issues with people.. and I must say.. I could trust him with anything... I could stick him in a room full of hot women.. and I know he would be faithful to me.. he loves me, and I still feel such strong passion even after 10 years together... so I am very very lucky..
thanks again guys... your advice really helps me see things from other perspectives.