I'd like to contribute value in the form of code for open-source projects, or maybe start my own project. But currently I still feel stuck, and I don't feel very inspired in my free time (I work the regular 40 hours/week, pretty draining).
Also, I remember as I was an teenager I made electronic music using some computer software. At that time, I felt very inspired and also wasn't influenced by the existing music out there. I was also surprised at which point one of my friend seemingly loved my music more than I did.
But after my student days, I haven't been able to create anything satisfying. I guess the reason is that in my teen times, I just created music to create music, but now when I do it, I have a specific goal, maybe too specific, and often get disappointed by the result because it either sounds like existing music (have been influenced too much) or just doesn't please my own ears.
I hope that I will find a way to feel inspired again in my free time, to be able to create something, anything. (yes I know, hoping doesn't help, I should seek it actively)
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