Hey Angela, I'm really glad that you've moved past the panic. You're on the road to healing now, just imagine how much disease thinking you've corrected already!!
The part of the secret with Cathy Goodman's ex-cancer is good isn't it?
As I said before, I am interested in the emotional causes of disease, and have read a few interesting books and references about them. EFT helps to clear the old emotional rubbish that has often contributed to the illness. For example, this uterine cancer cure
You have to make mistakes to learn, so please be kind to yourself about the "panicked, frantic and fearful state" you found yourself in. You're an earth angel in training, and I reckon you just passed the first test!
joy and health to you
PS - my offer's still open