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Originally Posted by CroMagna  lack of passion - wouldn't passion propel you forward? |
Yes, but the stronger the passion, the stronger I have to fight myself to remain impassioned. I've tried, and I can consistently push for about three days until I just lose the will to fight myself for it anymore. Greater passion just seems to elicit greater resistance.
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Originally Posted by CroMagna lack of seeing the end result - sometimes people are reluctant to start if they don't know what the end result will look like |
I knew what the end result of college was going to be, but that didn't make it any better.
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Originally Posted by CroMagna laziness - if you agree, then we have to figure out the psychological cause of your laziness |
I don't think I'm lazy. I can work hard, I enjoy working hard, I am just tired of confounding my own efforts.
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Originally Posted by CroMagna lack of purpose - if you don't see the point of it then why force yourself? |
Why force myself even if there is a purpose? I might achieve something, but does it matter if I hate it for forcing me to achieve it against myself? What's the fun in fighting this battle that never ends, no matter what why I assign to it?
Imagine if for every end result you wanted to achieve, you had to go through the exact same tedious arduous process, the only variation being length. That is what it's like. Everything I do, it's the same process of fighting myself, the same boring difficult struggle. Nothing I try to accomplish is new or exciting, because it's always the same boring old problem that ends up being the main component of achieving it.
I don't think I'm the only person that has this difficulty, but I don't understand how people can just ignore it. This can't be the best way. I can't imagine that something as natural as action has to feel this unnaturally difficult.