This is the greatest limiting factor in my life right now. I have all sorts of things that I would love to do, but none of it is appetizing because no matter what I accomplish I still have to fight myself to do it. The strongest force working against me isn't inexperience or lack of natural talent, or even competition. The strongest force working against me is the internal struggle that I have to participate in every time I try to do something useful for myself. Until I overcome this, every victory that I have is going to be flavorless and insubstantial because I know that I'm just going to have to fight the exact same fight next time, as if I've accomplished nothing at all. No matter what struggles I had to go through to win it was the internal struggle that was the greatest and most defining aspect of the battle, and I'm tired of fighting the same battle over and over again.
So my goal is to overcome this struggle, because no matter what I do I'm going to be struggling with it. No other goal is important to me until this goal has been realized. No other goal can be more important, since every goal leads to this one.
Is there anyone that can tell me what false assumptions I am making in setting this goal? Obviously, since I'm setting this goal rather than achieving it, I am doing something wrong, or something is out of place.
Does anybody have any suggestions as to what my flaws may be in this regard? Or any other regard, for that matter, but let's try to remain focused.
You may not believe me, but I prefer criticism of the harsher variety, and don't like wimpy "in my opinion"s or "I'm not saying this is a bad thing"isms. Just try not to breach into being caustic, and if I respond badly remind me that I asked for it. And try to be scathingly witty when you do
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