alexb5784,
That was one of the most impressive, beautiful, eloquently put posts I've read here or anywhere. The story of your "shame" made me realize just how tight my grip on security is. Only rarely do I realize that, I have a pretty high bar for what constitutes a life that is even remotely worth living - $40,000 a year, good health, a car in good working order, a healthy body. Half of what I do everyday is to try to maximize my chances at maintaining this standard of living, and whatever I've been doing as a part of "self-improvement," I realize now, was all about me chasing the hope of one day not having to worry about losing what I'm not willing to lose.
Thank you so much for posting this. Good luck with your impressive journey. This is just beautiful.
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