Hi Everyone,
Where to start. Here we go:
All the events that have transpired in my life have led me to this perfect place where I am right now! Including my original post. Although it was the wrong way to create the healing I desire, it was a catalyst that brought me not money, but the great treasures of WISDOM, KNOWLEDGE and FAITH.
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Originally posted by Shaden view post
Lol why need $5000 when you so obviously think that the LOA and thinking positive thoughts will have an effect on your life? Why not raise your vibration without money? |
The truth was that at that time, I lacked the faith that I could successfully heal myself through my beliefs. The idea that I needed to do detoxing etc. came from the previous 6 months of my life being consumed by obsessive research, and it took some time for those beliefs to stop carrying weight with me. I must've read hundreds of articles, tried many supplements, etc. I feared I wouldn't have success unless I did something really extreme. At one point I was contemplating a long water fast (not a hot idea for someone as lean as I am) - the arguments that ensued with my lover over this ended our relationship. So I felt like my world around me was crumbling.
This whole process dug up a lot of fear for me. See, at the root of wanting to do a water fast was a powerful fear of illness and also a fear that I was too broke for proper care. A water fast was cheap, but then I thought - if I want quality health, I need to invest in it! There is a saying that "you get what you pay for" so at that time I
thought in order to have a high quality of health I would need to make a worthy investment.
(Angela must find this pretty ironic - that I wouldn't go under the knife but I would 'starve' myself. I wasn't afraid of fasting. But I'm glad I didn't do it! I know that deep in my heart what I wanted is what I finally found, and I trust that the process I went through, and all the crazy ideas I had, had a purpose - each time I moved through them, I understood a little something more about myself. I resolved some issue, and have now arrived at the point where for me healing is not about doctors, knives, chemicals. It is not about supplements, juicing, fasting. It is about positive thinking, feeling, believing. Being calm, clear, relaxed. Breathing. Laughing. Creating a clear mental picture of perfect health. Healing the body is about creating miracles with the mind. Although I wasn't consciously aware, this is what I was seeking the whole time, and I judge no one, Angela, for what they have chosen on their path, on their personal journey;-)
At this point in my story, after discarding the crazy water fast idea and adopting the believe that my level of health could only reflect how much I could monetarily invest in it, sure enough, as the law of attraction always follows our predominant thoughts, the research I was doing began pointing in the direction of expensive supplements, like AHCC for example - in a clinical trial this mushroom extract completely reversed the advance cerivcal dysplasia for all the women involved. However, to get those effects would've taken at least 14 bottles which is around 850$ CND. Before I wrote my original post I had already incurred more than 680$ of debt to pay for supplements. But there was always this fear that it wasn't enough, or wasn't the right one for my biochemostry, and on and on went my fearful thoughts... until I had created an alternative healing strategy so diverse it left no room for error, to the tune of 5,000$. At the root of this was a false belief that I needed to spend a lot to heal, which was itself a reactionary thought to the idea that I needed to
starve to heal - I was a pendulum that swung both ways before I centered in the middle. Does this help you understand? 5,000$ was about swinging the opposite way - a misguided attempt to make amends with myself after contemplating restricting and depriving myself and also feeling that I lost this person that I loved so much because of it.
I was coming from a position of fear and feeling like a victim. So subconsciously those were the principles operating when I wrote the post. I had written my original post and then received The Secret a day or two later. It took a little time to sink in. But when it did, I realized that I had sent out the vibe of desperation, which would not attract to me what I desired. More so, after repeatedly watching Cathy and Morris Goodman's story, I began to trust and have faith, knowing that I created the dis-ease and that I could also heal it! And this is even more exciting than my original idea! It feels way more empowering than any solution I've encountered thus far - more empowering than surgery, than expensive and time consuming alternative methods.
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| ...You should have come on to the forums and told people to put their money to a use that would help multiple people as opposed to one person. |
Though I am no longer asking for help, I don't feel guilt for my original post. And I don't think it's wrong to help just one person. I just don't have a judgement about it. Do what you feel comfortable with. Shaden, if you think it would be a good idea to organize a charity and help many people, do it. I'm all for it. Any good thing, any act done in love has my thumb's up.
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Originally posted by alsy view post
...Hazel has already offered to help you on the issue side of things. I can recommend something that I have had personal experience with; Quantum-Touch... |
I am very grateful that you have shared this knowledge with me! I've never heard of EFT or Quantum Touch. I will definitely look into both. And reading this I just remembered another method of healing I had forgotten about - I had taught myself the Silva Mind Control Method a few years ago. I will go and reread the chapters on healing. And now since I am in a place of Faith, I began using Reiki again, because I have renewed confidence that the healing begins and ends inside me!
Through this confidence and through this faith I have been returned a precious gift - myself! Only now do I realize that I had let my fears and obsessive focus on dis-ease eclipsed everything else in my life, until I didn't exist in it. Now I remember myself, I remember I need to make myself feel good and joyful most of all.
I just want to end by saying that I feel really happy right now! I feel a joy and a reverence for life that is incredible. I will keep you posted on my healing. But in my mind, it is already done.
Much blessings, prosperity, healing, faith, love, wisdom and joy to all of you - for 2007 and always!!!
Angela xoxo