Thank you all for your support and advice. I have been "different" lately. I put it in quotations because I haven't exactly been different; it's more like I've been the same, differently.
Specifically, there was a small episode of depression I was having over this Thanksgiving weekend. I was at home, and while I love most of the people there, there is one person there that is powerfully able and willing to put a damper on any festive occasion, and even more so for any other occasion. I was rather depressed due to residual negative feelings that I'd generated there in the past. So I was lieing down, and I thought to myself "Why am I depressed?" Then I just sort of realized that I wasn't really depressed, and I wasn't anymore. It wasn't like I found a reason to not be depressed, or otherwise manipulated the feeling or the beliefs behind it. I just stopped being what I wasn't. That seems to me like it should have been the strangest thing; anybody that has ever felt depressed would agree that it never just "isnt' there." But it seemed completely normal and natural, just like I wasn't doing anything different at all. If anything, I'm boggled by not being boggled. That wasn't the only thing, but it was the most definable.
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