Did my parent really messed me up?

Well, I could come up with such a long list of what my parents did or should have not done! However, I believe that we choose our parents, thus, the question I have been asking for a very long time now is 'How have I messed myself up?'
I remember, back at home, south of Europe, I must have been 7 or 8 years old at the max and making my way to my classroom. I liked school back then, I used to find "learning" very easy and almost a responsibility (I don't know why). Well, to move on, I remember a game I used to play as I was walking to my classroom...I could tell people what to do, telepatically (please take no notice of typos as this is not my language and I can't see a spell-ckeck option), easy things such as "stop and look to your left/right...drop your bag, etc.
I used to love it and thought that I was special. I also used to decide which outcome I'd rather see out of any given situation, watch it happen.
I have never ben able to do it again but I never forgot about it! For the last 30 odd years I tried to get it back but no joy. Is this why I have found this site?
So much I want to say, got so many questions and I am so fascinated by what I read...I feel like I can finally articulate my experience and my belief (and remove my fear) but I think I'll keep my first post short...
Now I am very eager to carrying on reading.
Sognorealta