One more thing; you spoke of making this leap alone. It isn't so. The entire universe and beyond supports you in making this transition. You were alone before. Now you will never be alone, as you will be with your Self.
As odd as this sounds, your Self is the beloved you've longed for. Rest in that, and let the Self in. Its love is reflected from each pair of eyes you see, in the trees, in the water, in the dawn and the dusk, and the night. The universe would be empty without you, and now all holds its breath, hoping in any way possible to support you through this process so you can experience your Self fully.
This is one reason I love ACIM. This transition you are experiencing; whenever I am in that place of fear, I pick it up and the words now have a life to them for me. Immediately the charge is released, for me. It may not be so with you, but it has been so supportive to me in making this transition. The Sedona Method, too. . . . really huge blessings to me.
You are not alone; You now find your Beloved everywhere. Again, I bless you, and I hold you in the light! Belle,