Kristi,
I'm going to go with something completely different and recommend you start with "You." That is, get in touch with your intuition -- your spirit or higher self or whatever you like to call it. Knowing where to start and where to go next can only come from you; all any of us can answer is what we've seen or done. Once you know how to know, you won't have to ask.
Plus, once you find that, you'll realize you never really were alone and you were always completely loved, and that never hurts!
Best,
Andy