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Originally Posted by fellowtraveler  You couldn't be more wrong..actually I've been releasing it like crazy, myself. Which is why I hesitate to engage negativity any more than necessary - but in this case I thought I'd give a try helping you along.
No worries...it'll come to you. |
Thanks
. I should have known better than to assume you were being negative for negativity's sake.
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Originally Posted by mark7 hmmm, i think your having a problem trusting your own inner voice or conscious, and are reluctant to believe its telling you the right thing. |
Well duh! You're right, of course. It really is a lack of trust, and I think the panic sensation is a symptom of that. It's not really me that is panicking, but rather panic is happening and I'm aware of it. That is the physical sensation that I was talking about. The hot prickly rush, the shallow breathing, the feeling of dread, the racing heart, all hallmarks of a traditional panic attack (I had to look it up, as I've never experienced anything like a genuine panic attack). But I don't feel like it's
my panic attack, more like it's
a panic attack that is happening somewhere. And it gets worse, the more I allow myself to let go, to the point where it's kind of like an itch that I've been trying to ignore but just have to scratch.
That, more than anything, convinces me that this is a final hurdle. The fact that my mind is physically rebelling against this can't just be hapstance. That and the fact that it doesn't really bother me that I'm having a minor panic attack (the hot prickly feeling convinces me that it is genuinely a panic attack, since a lot of individuals with Panic Disorder report just such a feeling and I have never felt it before in my life).