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Originally Posted by striving4peace  I just had an 'attack' this morning. A friend of mine was talking to me about having orgasms being the best feeling in the world, and after a really long time of being in control of my emotions i went into lock down. I tried dealing with it by writing down what I was feeling and now I feel much better. Here is what I wrote:
"I feel horrible. like something stuck in my throat and in my gut.
cos i have deprived myself of 'the best feeling in the world'
why?
cos i was too scared. too picky. too naive. too stupid.
too ashamed of showing my own naked body to someone else till now.
when everyone else was enjoying it, i didn't. i was too stupid and scared to overcome whatever i needed to overcome to enjoy it
I could have enjoyed the best feeling in the world for the last 13 years and i didn't.
and now i am 29 and if I fall in love with whom if i don't enjoy sex, i'm doomed to have crappy sex for the rest of my life?
What have i done to myself?"
I thought I had overcome my issues, but wow, I guess I still have a possibility to regress. Any thoughts on how I can overcome this? |
You mean you've never had an orgasm by yourself? Or are you talking about what it would feel like with a guy? I have never experienced making love the way its supposed to be either,but i make up for it with,well,you know LOL