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esmas · 11-21-2008, 08:03 PM

Hi guys, although I haven't posted much I've been trolling this site hardcore for the last 2 years and I'd just like to say its helped me a lot through various times.

Basically 6 weeks ago I discovered online poker hosted in an American site. I live in Australia. Anyway, my first serious night of gambling I came away with 1200 USD which equates to roughly 1700 AUD. For an 18 year old like myself this is A LOT of money. Its more than what both my parents make in a week. Anyway, due to the fact that the money takes 10 days to process. Im down 700 in my bank. So a few days later I add more money to my poker account and begin betting. Finding myself losing continuously and having perpetuated the problem of me adding 120 AUD = 80 USD onto my poker account MANY times. This cycle would continue til I can no longer bear to play or my account will not allow me to take any more deposits. I then wait for my next pay check or for my cash to be deposited for the site.

Basically this cycle has continued for 5 weeks. Im now at a loss of roughly 4000 dollars excluding the money I've actually won off poker. Im 1000 dollars in debt with my bank account.

I also have a an audition for a highly acclaimed music academy in 12 days which im so terrified of failing. Only 5 students get chosen from a rough 150 although I'm in the top 15 for sure.

Im now sitting here at 5 am in the morning wondering what I've done to mess myself up so bad.

I also sleep for 12-13 hours a day, procrastinating hardcore?, and go to work which is at a pub and or play guitar. I still hold a very good social life with lots of friends but no one amazingly close.

From a person of my stature this doesn't happen normally; where I actually talk about **** going on with me... Im 18 and a male if that makes it easier to understand.

Just had to get that off my chest.

11-21-2008, 08:03 PM	#1 (permalink)
esmas Junior Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Posts: 24	Addicted to Poker; Texas Hold Em Hi guys, although I haven't posted much I've been trolling this site hardcore for the last 2 years and I'd just like to say its helped me a lot through various times. Basically 6 weeks ago I discovered online poker hosted in an American site. I live in Australia. Anyway, my first serious night of gambling I came away with 1200 USD which equates to roughly 1700 AUD. For an 18 year old like myself this is A LOT of money. Its more than what both my parents make in a week. Anyway, due to the fact that the money takes 10 days to process. Im down 700 in my bank. So a few days later I add more money to my poker account and begin betting. Finding myself losing continuously and having perpetuated the problem of me adding 120 AUD = 80 USD onto my poker account MANY times. This cycle would continue til I can no longer bear to play or my account will not allow me to take any more deposits. I then wait for my next pay check or for my cash to be deposited for the site. Basically this cycle has continued for 5 weeks. Im now at a loss of roughly 4000 dollars excluding the money I've actually won off poker. Im 1000 dollars in debt with my bank account. I also have a an audition for a highly acclaimed music academy in 12 days which im so terrified of failing. Only 5 students get chosen from a rough 150 although I'm in the top 15 for sure. Im now sitting here at 5 am in the morning wondering what I've done to mess myself up so bad. I also sleep for 12-13 hours a day, procrastinating hardcore?, and go to work which is at a pub and or play guitar. I still hold a very good social life with lots of friends but no one amazingly close. From a person of my stature this doesn't happen normally; where I actually talk about **** going on with me... Im 18 and a male if that makes it easier to understand. Just had to get that off my chest.