I feel something like david21 and pokerenthusiast. I see couples all the time and I'm wondering if I'm gonna be like them. When I see hot girls/women on the streets I'm so depressed I can't have them (or I think I can't have them).
I dig my hole by neglecting my problem - that is not find a girlfriend(s) years ago. which I'm going to have to now, but it will probably not be easy.
I think I got this problem because I have social anxiety (phobia), low self confidence, I'm introvert... and so on. I couldn't attract girls and just gave up.
The thing is if the potential girlfriend asks me about my past relationships and stuff I'll say "I'm virgin".. I think it will be just too weird, because I'm 30, and then she'll probably tell all her girlfriends and I'll feel like an idiot.
I mean what if I get to know women and let's say she's 38 and she tells me she's virgin. I don't know what would I think of that.. that she's probably messed up in her head. (like I am
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