I'm not even sure whether anyone is even going to read this but I wanted to say something, nevertheless.
I'm 21 and I've never even kissed a girl. My life has been quite difficult so I find connecting with people my own age a real challenge and so relationships of the kind mentioned in this thread have not happened for me. I've tried but things have never developed.
Over the past eight years I have wanted one thing: companionship. I want someone to share my soul with but I haven't yet found this. It makes me sad everyday because all I want is to be really close to someone on all levels. I don't just want sex. What I want, in a way, transcends that.
I've just started university. Over the past couple of months I have been feeling a lot of emotional pain regarding this issue in my life. All I ever see is people kissing and cuddling appearing to be close, indulging in that which I want the most. It hurts so much. But don't take me wrongly, sex is not really the issue here. I just want someone to hold and to feel exceptionally close to that is more than just a friend.
It is reassuring to see that I am not the only one going through this.
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