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Originally Posted by The Cloud  Your beliefs aren't any stupider than anyone else's. You'll never find a belief that couldn't be called stupid for one reason or another; all beliefs are contradictory.
Let me give you some semi-practical advice. Find what you are proudest of, and give it up. I don't mean physically, I mean internally (although physically may help if it's possible). Whatever it is about yourself that you are proudest of is probably what is causing you the most misery, because that is what you will resist letting go of no matter how much it hurts. This pride will probably be in something that sounds good to begin with, but if you really analyze it closely you'll see that it is destructive to both you and those around you, and you'll begin to realize that it's just not worth fighting for. Then all you have to do is stop fighting on its behalf to be free of it. |
Thats good advice thank you. I'm not sure what it is I'm proudest of.....you know what.....this could be strange and I'm not sure I fully accept it....but it could be that I'm proud of my depression. Like it's a battle scar or something. I have been feeding it quite a lot lately. That's why I was thinking maybe I thought about my issues with my mum because I didn't want to give them up. I don't know.....
But I also think I have a lot of pride because I think I'm better than other people. Like, I know I'm not.....and ugh......I've been through all this before I've SORTED out these issues!!! I've done this getting through the pride stage etc. Why am I back here???? All this pride started because I was so upset about how I am treated by people that I just turned it around and said well I don't need anyone I'm better than them etc.
Whatever it is that I'm holding on to....could this maybe be the last cling? Like, if I get through this stage could I be free of it forever?