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dali · 11-17-2008, 05:26 PM

This is a very interesting blog. I think most aspects discussed in it have occurred to me and DO still. Like an old record going round and round in my head...Jesus, Buddha, social change, personal empowerment, fear, jealosy, greed, corporations and so on and so on.

I am glad I came accross this blog and I get what Steve pointed out to Erin. I too have shared all those beliefs Erin had and have worked to change them . I think my thinking is more in line with Steves now BUT , and there always is one until its eradicated ,something is still present in my thinking which is not helping the neceaary shift. How do I know? Because I am as poor as ever I have been!!

The only thing I can come up with is that I worry that I would do nothing good with it. Yet in my heart I know that what I want to do- what my dream is and it is ONLY good. I want to start a centre for recovery from life for people who see life as difficult and unprogressive. There seems to be nothing evil about that. A place where men, women and children could come to to find rest, beauty , harmony and be given a variety of tools to carry back into their lives to help them create a better world for themselves and their communities.So the question I ask myself is , What on earth makes me believe I would do nothing good with it?

Could anyone help me understand why this INSANITY- this going round and round of the same old record persists?

Dont get me wrong I can live with a great amount of freedom in poverty. I am well able to sit like a monk and breathe and enjoy completely what little I have! Living in the NOW anything and everything is beautiful!! I would like to know if its not too greedy to want more. I wrote that not knowing what was coming!! But I refuse to see it as an aha. Maybe I like being stuck? Maybe its safe? It cerainly isnt empowering.

Please help.

11-17-2008, 05:26 PM	#95 (permalink)
dali Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: scotland Posts: 218	This is a very interesting blog. I think most aspects discussed in it have occurred to me and DO still. Like an old record going round and round in my head...Jesus, Buddha, social change, personal empowerment, fear, jealosy, greed, corporations and so on and so on. I am glad I came accross this blog and I get what Steve pointed out to Erin. I too have shared all those beliefs Erin had and have worked to change them . I think my thinking is more in line with Steves now BUT , and there always is one until its eradicated ,something is still present in my thinking which is not helping the neceaary shift. How do I know? Because I am as poor as ever I have been!! The only thing I can come up with is that I worry that I would do nothing good with it. Yet in my heart I know that what I want to do- what my dream is and it is ONLY good. I want to start a centre for recovery from life for people who see life as difficult and unprogressive. There seems to be nothing evil about that. A place where men, women and children could come to to find rest, beauty , harmony and be given a variety of tools to carry back into their lives to help them create a better world for themselves and their communities.So the question I ask myself is , What on earth makes me believe I would do nothing good with it? Could anyone help me understand why this INSANITY- this going round and round of the same old record persists? Dont get me wrong I can live with a great amount of freedom in poverty. I am well able to sit like a monk and breathe and enjoy completely what little I have! Living in the NOW anything and everything is beautiful!! I would like to know if its not too greedy to want more. I wrote that not knowing what was coming!! But I refuse to see it as an aha. Maybe I like being stuck? Maybe its safe? It cerainly isnt empowering. Please help.