 I have no shame...
It's weird but I don't really feel any deep shame over anything I've done, and there are many questionable incidents.
-seeing underage girls working as prostitututes
-stealing from my parents
-sleeping with someone's boyfriend - only mitigating circumstance is he was in an 'open relationship' at the time.
I used to wonder if I HAD a conscience through my teen years, but it grew with time. Now I do regret hurting other people, but have forgiven myself and come to terms with it so deeply that no one else's opinion of me can possibly matter. They were all experiences of my growth and can't be judged anymore. They just were, and I am living here and now. Anyone else cultivate their conscience slowly?
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