I agree with Eduardo: it's time to give this a rest.
Steve, I love your blog with a passion but your posts are getting more maudlin each day. I admit I've become complacent and used to you being thought provoking and uplifting each day but I'm not getting that. I'm selfish: this is entirely all about me and what I get out of it
So if I feel kinda sad reading your posts, I can't for a minute imagine how hard it is for you. You have proved to us that it's really tough. I don't see the health benefits of it for doing it for this period of time. I just DON'T get it. Call me a dumb Kiwi but I can't see it
Raw food eating, yes, vegetarianism, yes, veganism, yes. This stuff? uh uh. I could SWEAR that in some of the posts you've done in the last couple of weeks that you've got some kind of allergy to Watermelon because you kept getting weird bowel issues whenever you detailed having had a watermelon juice of some kind. Who knows.
Anyway: you have given really good reasons for giving up on it: your family means a lot to you and I'd hate feeling disconnected like that. Speak to them all and see what the have to say too.
Arohanui,
Jenny.