Hi Steve,
Thanks for asking.
You don't sound like your heart is in it in this last post.
If you want my permission to call it off then you have it. Its cool, your still 10 feet tall if you call it a day.
If you want encouragement you've got that too. I understand the stamina you need to get this far - I went 18 months without even juice passing my lips. It was an apparent necessity at the time to keep me alive. If you do want to carry on perhaps there are a few things you can do to make it more tolerable. I discovered ways to satisfy my mind with food without eating. I drew pictures of food, designed recipes and wrote menu's of the things I wanted to eat when my fast ended. I also prepared food for my family - simple dishes decorated elaborately. I began to enjoy food by proxy. I attained a new level of appreciation for food.
I don't like being disconnected from my family, eating is a ritual. I'd try and a way to participate. If I wanted to carry on I'd find a way. If I didn't want to carry on, I'd find a way also.
If you do decide to eat solids you'll know as soon as that food enters your mouth whether it was the right decision or not.
Best wishes,
Dan
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