I think I have a tendency to tell people things I feel guilty about, even when there's no need and when it's not relevant - not sure why I do that.
Thanks Steve for your reply.
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Why are you ashamed of crushing on other women?
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I grew up in a family where anything vaguely homosexual was abhorrent. My grandparents thought that gays should be executed, so you can see what sort of insane beliefs I absorbed from my parents and grandparents while growing up.
Even though I see that such beliefs are ridiculous, there is still a part of me which is afraid of being judged harshly for any thoughts I might have which are not 100% heterosexual. I am not not gay or even bisexual, but I feel awkward telling a female friend she looks nice, in case she thinks I'm not completely straight.
I think that stems from how my mother treated me - I love my mother very much but she didn't like to be hugged or kissed and told me later on in my teens that I was too old for kisses and it would not look right to other people, the undertone was that we would look gay or something.