I now know what my life purpose is.
It has taken me a while to discover. I have had many false starts and been down a few blind alleys, but I now know my life purpose.
My life purpose is to be an enabler (note to self: I need a better word to describe my life purpose. “Enabler” sounds wrong in my head but is the nearest word I can come up with to describe my feelings).
My purpose in life is to make it possible for others to realise their ambitions and dreams. I am the person they come to for advice. I am the shoulder for them to cry on and the sounding board for their ideas. It is my job to listen without prejudice and to help them to turn their ideas into a reality, or to set them on the path they need to travel down to realise their dream.
What made me realise this when I thought about the times I have helped people. Right from my early days on c.b. radio in my teens, when I used to find myself being the person other cb’ers called on when they had a personal problem. I rarely solved their problems outright but often found myself acting as their verbal punch bag, or counsellor. A “listener”, one might say.
More recently, my wife, Claire, was declaring how she would love to run her own TaeKwonDo club. If only she could find a venue. One day, on the way back from town, I was listening to her going on about “one day” this and “maybe, sometime I will get a hall and start a club”. I simply pulled into the car park of the local boxing club that we passed most days and went in to speak to the owner about hiring the hall. Much to my wife’s embarrassment. The result? A few weeks later Claire was holding her first club night. This eventually led to her inheriting a much larger club when her old instructor retired. Maybe, had she not proven herself with her first club, she may not have been considered to take over her instructor’s club.
On the way to finding my life purpose I went through all the usual things such as being a writer, earning a living from blogging, working from home in some creative or technical field to do with computers. All of these things I would still love to achieve. However it soon dawned on me that the reason these don’t feel right are because they are selfish ambitions. Nothing inherently wrong with them, but they don’t excite me in the way that being an “enabler” does.
To see someone blossom thanks to my actions is the thing that really stirs up emotions in me whenever I imagine myself in that role. in fact I'm almost crying as I write this!!
I’m not sure how I get from being a full time lorry driver (and spare time geek) to becoming an “enabler” (I need a better word to describe this role). I’m not even sure if it is something that I can make a living from. To be honest, I don’t really care that much, I just want to find a way to alter my life so that I can have the time and freedom to help people take their first steps on realising their own ambitions. Even just being a listening ear to someone going through a tough time is something I would love to be able to do. I’ve lost count of the times I have sat in a bar listening patiently to someone spilling out their life story to me over a pint or three. Usually someone I have never met before that drink and usually never see again!!
Now I know what my life purpose is, I just need find a way to offer this up to the universe and give it permission to help me make space in my life for me to become what I need to be.
I hope this makes sense, I had to write it out before the feeling fades back into my subconscious.
By posting this on here I feel that I am making my intentions public, now I have an obligation to the world to at least try to make them a reality for myself.
Many thanks, Andy.
P.S I still want to be a full time geek
