Hi guys,
I currently feel stuck.
I did 2 years of university, during this time I went through a lot of anxiety. I hated university life, I didn't like my major, went through many family problems, I found it difficult to concentrate and absorb any new information, and eventually I failed all my courses. My parents put away money for my education through the Children's education plan. I was informed that if I don't successfully finish all my classes I will lose their investment. I failed university. lost the money. disappointed myself and my family.
I spend the summer at the Vipassana Meditation Center, it really helped me let go of certain emotional issues. I feel much better about myself and others. My relationships with family has improved.
Now I feel this intense uncertainty. I am unsure of my own potential, what to do next, or what I really want. Currently I am working at a coffee shop. Its an o.k. job while studying, but I know I can do better then that. I don't like any job available for me. Everything I like requires further education. So I know that I need to go back to school. But I don't know what I am good for or even what my options are. I feel stuck. I don't want to make a choice and
then hate it, and fail again. I want to make a serious commitment and I feel uncertain about any decision.
I started researching different career options. Everything I am interested in like – forestry, conservation, art therapy, I no longer qualify for. To get into forestry I need High school level university math, chemistry and biology. I don't have these credits, so I will need to go back to high school. Right now most of the high schools are filled up and anyways I don't want to go back to high school after 2 years of university. I could get into an arts program and take psychology. But I am not allowed to go back to university for a year
and then many universities might not accept my application because of poor academic performance.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I feel really stressed out about this. Most university applications are coming due soon, I need to choose now or I will have to wait another year. I don't want to wait another year, i want to do something other then work full time at a coffee shop.