For me, the concern is more about, am I choosing to drink because I can and feel like it's an okay choice for me? Or am I feeling more of an addiction sort of non-choice? Usually, it's the latter. That's where my concern is. I think many of us are in denial about this addiction...because it's socially acceptable to do every day to some degree.
I've had good experiences and many bad as well, while under the influence. Mostly, I find an "acceptable" level of one or two glasses of wine in the evening. It calms my over active mind in many ways...yet more than likely, brings a bit more drama to my emotions...which is already usually a bit much to begin with.
I wrestle with this regularly...and would like to come to a place of peace, where I feel more in charge of what part of me is choosing. Not sure if this made any sense, as I'm starting that second glass of wine as I speak
Cheers?
Pam