[2ko]

Unfortunatly I have been missing a lot of solar gazing days lately because of clouds and procrastinating until the sun is below the trees. I am making solar gazing my first prioriety now and when i get my drivers license hopefully i will be able to catch the sun set if i miss doing my gazing earlier.

I'm also having some concerns about solar gazing. Hira spoke about how he didn't have dreams anymore after he completed the process. Does that mean i can't have a lucid dream either? I have lucid dreamed before and would very much like to my whole life. It dosen't seem right that something good would go away while all these other benefits are pouring into my life. I have been trying to learn lucid dreaming so maybe if i master it now i can keep it with me after the process of solar gazing. I believe i can keep lucid dreaming, i will find a way somehow.

Another concern is that all of my hunger will go away. I don't think the excuse "I'm just not hungry right now" is going to be suitable for my whole life. I thought if I ever became a raw foodist my parents would think I'm crazy, but becoming a . . . . . non-foodist! No one would even believe me if I told them about solar gazing. I still plan on doing the full process which includes being a noneater. I am not going to sabotoge benefits just to keep people happy by being a good normal person. I am doing this 100% and I'm letting everybody think what they want to think.