I think: We chose to incarnate, we chose our lessons and so we can chose to end our lifes, no matter what. We're responsible for what we do and that's it.
What if you run from your lessons?
Well, that's your choice - you don't have to learn anything here.
I have to say that I made the biggest growing experiences when I enjoyed my life, because then I could consciously chose to learn.
I don't want to live a life that has not the primary aim to bring joy to myself and to the world.