I think InquiringMind has some great points to make. Us humans repeat patterns of behaviour because there's a distinct pay-off (or pay-offs) in doing so.
Figure out what the pay-off is and you're in a position of choice about what to do next.
As InquiringMind suggests, it can be really hard to see a pay-off in going forwards with a project that doesn't really mean much to us or that we're struggling to find a valid connection to. In reading your posts I get the sense that you've lost a connection to 2 things - 1. a strong sense of who you are, and 2. a strong sense of what matters to you. With those 2 elements in place, you become grounded and connected to you and your life.
I think that's a foundation layer for taking action, and with that foundation it becomes so much easier to make choices that serve us well.
As long as you're engaged with the things that matter to you you're free to get going with all kinds of projects that have a personal relevance.
Feel free to holler if you want to drill into any of those areas and have any questions.
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