Why do you get so mad when she calls you a loser? Is it because you feel that there may be some truth to it? If you do believe you are a loser, what things can you do to change that belief?
You hate your sister, but yet you feel that she should help you find a job? Do you always hate people who you think should help you? Oh, yes, your mom. You live with her (she is helping you) and yet, she is useless too.
Sounds like you believe the cause of your problems is your sister. If that were so, why do you choose to give her so much power over your life? I guess that's easy, so that you don't have to held accountable when you don't like the results. You just blame her. Hey, I'm not judging you, it sounds like a pretty easy path, but I know that would not generate joy for me. But if you want to continue doing that, you have my permission.
Or, you could respond in a different way... up to you. It's your choice.
If your sister disappeared, never to come back again, what will be possible in your life? Will you magically have a job, lots of money, be able to move out on your own, be completely and utterly joyous?
What can you be doing now, that will move you to abundance and joy?
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