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Originally Posted by Angela  Exactly. It's not what you know, it's what you don't know. As a part of this belief that you are lazy (which is nothing but a thought in your head, by the way; it's not the truth), you are harboring some negative habitual thought pattern that you're not even aware of. Look deeper, underneath "I am lazy," and see what you really believe about yourself -- "I am ____."
When you see it, you take away its power over you. Inspiration and power become available. Until then, your habitual thought is running your life -- you're like a robot. |
Thank you for this.
I have been thinking a lot about this, and I realize that when I say I am lazy, this is not true, this is a label put on my by other people (mainly in the past).
I talked to my husband about this and what he said is true:
"how can you be lazy, if you get up every day at 6.45 to go to work, come home around 19.00, help with the dishes, household etc.? And if you need even more proof, you had a restaurant, where you worked from 5 till 19.00 for 6,5 days a week for 5 months, and didn't give up or stopped doing it".
He is right of course (how annoying, he always is..
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I have been thinking about this, and I think there are 2 things going on:
1. I hate wasting energy on something that I do not think is needed/useful/nice for me (now or later), I much rather do something I actually like... This is something I am ok with, and actually like about myself. Not doing something unless it is beneficial for me (long run or short term)
2. Something stops me. It is as if there are 2 persons in my mind / body. On the one side I know that I am successful, that I can do anything I put my mind to, that nothing can hold me back. This is my confidential side that is mainly in control of my mind.
The other side is a very silent but persistent little voice saying: "who gives you the right to say that you are great? Why would you be great? Just be normal, and you are happy if you succeed at that.. Don't even try, you will just fail anyway...
Unfortunately, this is the voice that has control over my body. So that even when with whole my hearth and mind I want to do something... I still sit on the couch and do not move.
This is the same voice that gave me my panic attacks, before. The same voice that stopped me from going into a class room (way back in high school) even if I managed to get as far as that already.. it was capable or turning me around and making me go home.
The stupid thing is.. this little voice could really make me stop thinking at all. I just did things (went to home to read, to the library to read etc. Books are my drugs of choice
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Anybody still follows what I mean? And if yes... anybody any ideas on how to "kill" the voice in my head?