Ok, I fell in love with this girl and I know she liked me too - I really felt like she understood me. Anyway, I had low self-esteem and thought myself not good enough for her and so I never asked her out. I didn’t think not asking her out would affect me that much, but the thought that I failed to have the girl of my dreams because I couldn’t see my own worth has left me a bit heart broken. Now the world seems less wondrous. I find myself caring less about things now and I often feel empty during interactions. When it comes to male/female interactions, truthfully I don’t want to be judged on attractiveness and mate-ability, however thanks to PUA I know this is the case. I don't want to be some masculine good looking rock with no insecurities, I just want people to accept and love me for who I am. I feel alone and like no one understands me. Sorry if it sounds like I’m wallowing. I don’t want your pity, just your understanding.
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