Thanks for showing your concerns Dan, Erin, machoman, funchy & Freddie. I have never had this situation earlier where so many people heard & responded to my voice. I will make a new beggining. I feel it would be wise not to set a date or set a longer time frame for achieving my goals as suggested by Dan.
Career wise I don't need a job which only pays my bills...I want to contribute something(don't know what) back to someone(don't know who) so that I leave my mark here in this world. I think I will hold on to my job & parallely look out for work which I really like. There were times I feel that since I do not have any special skills or talents why not put all my money on luck(lotto sort of thing). Is it OK(I will need your advice here). My son is growing up & I can't afford to put more money on gaining skills at this age of 35. You know higher education for my son would be so much expensive.
Yesterday I read a few pages on Princilpe of Power in Steve's book. I think the 1st thing I need to do is to take responsibilty for all areas of my life.
But you know what- I fear failure to such an extent. Tomorrow my son should not say that I haven't done much for him(hope you can understand my feelings). What would happen if I lose all my money pursuing PD & losing even what I have.
But still all your feedback has given me that ray of hope. I will read the articles mentioned by Erin & inputs by machoman(though at this stage I still feel powerless)