Originally Posted by Love Angel
What's at the root of needing to put others down for you? Mistrust? A need to feel superior? Is being a 'smart person' for you about avoiding being fooled? Or looking down at the 'dummies'? Open your heart to love, and you'll see, there is a whole world out there, safe, caring, loving, trusting, welcoming... We can put intellect to positive use without surrounding our intelligence with an aura of negative energy. Eventually tc33 you will evolve, and manifest your unique gifts in the positive - 'sarcasm' will become a clever wit that seeks to harm no one, but rather uplifts as it enlightens others. Your intellect is fine, that is not the problem. You need to change its focus and look for ways to create positive opportunities for yourself and others.
You know what, Love Angel? You're absolutely right, and you displayed an impressive amount of moral courage by confronting me on this issue. You are obviously a sincere, genuine and kind person whom I admire. I sincerely apologize for the dissonance I created earlier.
The truth is that I have no idea why I have an intrinsic need to tell the world that I'm a 'smart person' (feeling of superiority?). I know that condescending people create dissonance. I know
it, but I do it anyways. Granted, I do it much less than now than I have in the past (yay progress!), but my thoughts often remain. If you were to tell me your story in person, I'd semi-feign empathy on the outside but simultaneously judge you on the inside. Yes, I may have gotten better at covering up the problem, but it remains a problem none-the-less. I believe the root cause of this problem is being judgemental, but I have not yet found a logical reason to be non-judgemental towards others. I'm getting pretty good at faking it on the outside, but this is obviously not a long-term solution. Do you have any thoughts/suggestions?
Now, let's try to put the ♥♥♥♥♥ back in the horse
If you would, please allow me to attempt to rephrase my original answer in the form of a constructive, supportive comment:
Love Angel, you have a good heart. Anyone who quotes the bible, intends to contribute to a healthier planet, and drinks organic juices must
be an enlightened individual. (positive sarcasm?
) However, I'm not certain that asking for resources will correct the underlying problem. Obviously I do not know the particulars of your situation, but I do know that the same habits which exhausted your resources will not be corrected simply by acquiring more resources. Regardless of the outcome of your 'raise $5K in two weeks' campaign, it may be wise to consider what fundamental economic issues exist in your life and work to correct those. After correcting this issue, you'll be in a much greater position to spread your positivity to others than you are currently.
There...was that any better? And Merry Christmas (sincerely this time!)