I have found in my life given time, things change and you find yourself in a better place. However, that change is what tends to drive you crazy if you resist. Continue with PD techniques. When you look back on this time, in the future you may see why things happened in your life. To set such a short amount of time and expect the universe to work within that time frame is not likely to happen for you. Read more about setting up intentions. Read Erin's Blog on suicide, before you make that choice.
I'll send my blessing to you today.