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Originally Posted by catalyst  I was betrayed by the one person I trusted in this world. The one person I would have done anything for. She was the only person I have ever really cared about, and we spend a third of our lives together.
Hard to put into words, and the story is too long, but the end is so short. Basically, one day she told me she no wanted to be with me. I soon found out she was with someone else - we stopped talking since. Ten years of trust, promises, commitments.. suddenly nothing. Some days are better than others, but other days I feel paralyzed. After something like this happens, how can you trust anyone again?
I don't want pity, I just want to get over this and let her go but inside something won't let it die. I feel as though this pain is ultimately controlling my life, my decisions, and my thoughts. |
I felt that too. I also spend years with the woman who I thought I would be with for the rest of my life. Then that happened.
I felt depressed for some years. Later I learned that she had a problem of ethics. I used to blame me for that, and think I did not worth enough. But that discovery helped me a lot. If you do not love each other, you could leave each other, but that would be a result of mature chatter.
But she had someone else. In the end I learned this sadness I had became rotten, became hate, and the only way to heal myself was to forgive her (not to restart anything with her, of course, just forgive and understand that humans make mistakes). After I learned that (it took lots of time), all emotions had gone down, I could meet her again and talk like adults.
She had some bitter experiences and I really felt sorry for I did not want bad things to happen to her, since I already had forgiven her. She accepted that what she did was a mistake. She was sincere and I appreciated that.
Now our lives had taken different paths. And I wish her the best, I really do.
I can only learn from her, and not do what she did to me, for I know how much it hurts.
Later I met my wife and I love her.
In the end no one else can heal you but you.
It is bad news because you might like someone to come and save you, but the good thing is that you are in control, so it is up to you to heal or not. It is also overwhelming, for hate is the most horrible thing, and hating makes you a slave of sadness and negativity.
I survived to that. It is tough, very painful. But you are not the only one. You can survive to that.