[amixa]

before i tell you this dream i had i will give you some background info on maybe why i had it.. but i'm not sure. i'll try and keep this as short as i possibly can.

i've always been interested in psychology and why people become the people they are. of course i'd be interested in why people become psychopaths/schizophrenics and why are there people who are attracted to children..

i can't even recall when i did this.. could have been a couple months ago could have been a few months ago. i just wanted to understand why a child molester would exist. what purpose does it hold.. and so on.

i was just trying to find an answer but all of a sudden i got the vision of a man .. having relations with a little girl. it felt quite real.. and for whatever reason i had the vision as if i was floating above the man.. watching down on both of them. for a split moment i understood the man's attraction.. which was slightly disturbing. does anyone know what i could have possibly been accessing? is this the akashic library? or my own soul's experience?

ever since then i've felt slightly uneasy as to what i experienced. a couple nights ago i dreamt i was in a building of some sort.. and i was preparing (it gets slightly blurry here) my reiki master came in either before or after to smudge the room with sage but the act that was taking place was me killing a molester. i had come across his 'items' or keepsakes of his victims that were in a box i own. they were 8 x 10s of children. 2 of the ones who had already been 'perverted' were painted on depictions of the children in black and white and their portraits moved (like in harry potter the pictures move) i can't recall what happened to them but it was or seemed unnatural and disturbing. there was one portrait that still remained a photographic peaceful image of this boy who was still content. even though the molester was dead i had to release him somehow. (this photograph also moved) i also hid all the evidence of blood and for whatever reason people from my old workplace all came in as if they were supposed to be there.. they knew what had happened (that i killed him) but just stated it was a crime scene (police were with them) and allowed me to remain free.
skipping a bunch of other plot narratives i travelled to mexico to get to a meeting place in a specific desert or nature reserve? and released him (his portrait) into the wind and off into the land.

thanks for reading this far. this is it though. this isn't as clear as other dreams when i can usually tell if its a medicine dream or not. any suggestions would be great thanks