Thanks everyone for your responses.
Daphne - you're amazing. You know that I'm a big fan of your blog, and I'm really grateful for that post. It was pretty emotional for me to read through it. I've tried to put any memories of her to the darkest place in my mind, and even attempting to recall them was like calling a up storm.
All my life, I've sort of been thought of as a strong person by those around me, and I often get comments about how fast I've recovered. Only if they knew how hard it's been for me, but the last thing I want from them is pity. I only let her see my vulnerabilities, because I trusted her in every way. Regardless, I will get back up and I'm going to be a better man because of this. I won't be joining the bitter and hardened hearts club
