Not a really great week for me, I would say it was a slump, but a pretty gentle slump. I got started watching 30 Rock and so did a bit of a TV overdose and smoking really escalated as well. Started affirming last night on "I am not in control" and decided to take a 2-day break from smoking.
I allowed myself to be in a bad mood for a couple of days, for part of one day I even used the words "bad mood" instead of turning it negative. I think I see a pattern where I use being in a bad mood or smoking or TV as an excuse to take some rest. I push people away so that I can carve out some time to recharge. It is because I am not taking care of myself correctly, maybe I need to be scheduling more rest time or maybe a better diet would help me to be more dynamic. Or maybe I just need to find ways to be more pleasant while insisting on getting the rest I need. Also, when I turn to addictive habits like TV and smoking I can seldom gague correctly how much rest time I need. The success was that I did manage to maintain acceptable productivity over the slump, and even managed to put in some time on my flashcards programming project which has not been touched in about 6 weeks (since starting my job).
I have been turning "I am not happy" into "I don't choose to be happy" whenever I notice and remember this week. The funny thing is that it so often next turns into "I am not paying attention" or "I am not present".
I've also been affirming on "I don't have perfect vision", but not seeing any results from that one yet.
