Hey Catalyst,
I had no idea you were going through this when we exchanged comments on my blog. Wow. You've certainly held up well, I must say. Even now, though the hurt is obvious, you still come across as rational and in control. Not easy, but it shows that you're pretty far along the long road to recovery.
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Originally Posted by catalyst  I struggle to reconcile the good memories, as everything we shared seems tainted now. |
When I went through a very painful break-up, I thought the same way. That the nasty way it ended spoilt everything that went before. It was this phrase I read somewhere that changed my thinking:
Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.
I don't know if you will respond to that the way I did. For me it was as if the scales fell from my eyes immediately. I realised that I could choose to be grateful for what we did have, and you certainly have ten years worth of wonderful experiences that made you who you are today.
Be grateful, Catalyst. I'm not preaching, just saying that gratitude works.
And oh yes, exercise too, as Wordkeeper pointed out. Before someone sent those words to me, I was pounding the tracks everyday just trying to tire myself out to stop thinking. This went on for months until one day I realised I wasn't running because of him anymore. I was running for me. This recovery will happen for you too.
Keep that chin up.
PS: I just wrote an entire post,
Smile Because It Happened, on that saying I quoted above. It was written for you so you are the reader I refer to in the post. Hope that it helps you, and even if not, hope it makes you feel good that you are worth the effort of an entire post!