I am sorry to hear about what you have been through. Your pain comes through very clearly.
You don't mention how long ago this happened. There are things you can do to help encourage the healing but it depends on where you are in the process.
You have experience a painful emotional wound. When I have been through emotionally traumatic events I developed a metaphor that helped me understand why it was taking me so long to get beyond the unbearable pain. The analogy is that what you have experienced is equivalent to being hit by a Mack truck while crossing the street.
Initially, your only goal is survival, each and every day to keep alive - nutrition, air, sleep. As you progress you will move into therapy - maybe surgery and physical therapy to begin to get your limbs to function again.
My point is that if this betrayal was very recent then you are in survival stage and you want to keep the air flowing. If you are beyond that the physical therapy is painful but the only hope of returning use of your limbs.
Meanwhile I have one suggestion and that is to do "exercises" of controlling your thoughts. When the painful thoughts come (as I suspect they are almost omnipresent) then do your best to replace them with thoughts of something, anything that is pleasant or at least MORE pleasant. It will be difficult but with work it will become easier and easier and begin to give you more and more relief.
Don't "repress" your hurt or anger but replace the thoughts with better thoughts - thoughts that are not negative or damaging. Keep busy when they come - read, cook, play sports - anything positive that you enjoy. When the thoughts and memories come do not dwell on them, do not encourage them - you cannot make them go away but you can avoid dwelling on them. You will be surprised how much this will help begin the healing process.
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