[catalyst]

I was betrayed by the one person I trusted in this world. The one person I would have done anything for. She was the only person I have ever really cared about, and we spend a third of our lives together.

Hard to put into words, and the story is too long, but the end is so short. Basically, one day she told me she no wanted to be with me. I soon found out she was with someone else - we stopped talking since. Ten years of trust, promises, commitments.. suddenly nothing. Some days are better than others, but other days I feel paralyzed. After something like this happens, how can you trust anyone again?

I don't want pity, I just want to get over this and let her go but inside something won't let it die. I feel as though this pain is ultimately controlling my life, my decisions, and my thoughts.