Oh, Lana.
I'm so sorry you're going through this. Listen, I think the best thing you could do is open yourself up. Say it all. Say it now. Even Sunday seems far-off for this kind of thing. Your heart is hurting so much; let him know, and be prepared to let him go. Say it all... Go mad and let it all out. Even if it's something that you might be embarrassed or scared to admit, say it all. Don't let your heart be heavy with this. You surrender when you say it all. There's nothing more for you to do. That's when you'll get your answer. This is about now... Don't think that you "can take it" a while longer. Sure, you're strong. But, there is no reason for you to suffer like this. Don't do that to your spirit. You accept him as he is. Expect the same in return. What you feel is part of you, and you should/must express it. Don't hide yourself, or restrain yourself because "he might not be ready". You are. You need to live according to you, not anyone else. Be you. Show him you.
*blessings* I send you lots of love and light.