[suchnessofmoment]

Thanks for all the comments.

I started this thread as a way of coming out of closet and letting you guys know about my current situation. I have very cordial relationships with people I work with, but my human interaction pretty much stops there. It's the lack of intimate friendship which pains me.

I'm a college student ( finishing up) and the general mores of college students regarding relationships are out of sync with mine. Now I'm aware that by this type of thinking I'm building up a wall around myself, but I can't help but realize that my peers are inclined towards short term gratification as opposed to cultivating deep friendships. Given the attitude and personalities of most of the women I find in school, I honestly would not be content in a relationship with them. Friends? of course. Anything deeper?

There is no end to what you can manifest in your life, and I echo what has been said in this thread, fill your life so full that a single person cannot make or break it, but if you are just waiting around for that one person to complete your life then you are being powerfully patient for the wrong thing.

Try and aim to get to the point where having a relationship is inconsequential to your happiness. I was told that it is at that point that the relationship will 'happen', and though earlier I only believed in causality as the only factor, I now see luck / the universe / God / destiny / whatever you wanna put there - has a part to play too.

Thanks for these comments. Who knows? maybe there's a reason my life is as it is now. Who knows? maybe there's a written plan for all our lives and in the spirit of the dao, I would let the life flow and see what kind of people it brings me.

Funnily as of an hour of me writing this, I'm very very close on embarking on to a relationship

good luck. Hopefully everything turns out just as you hope.