[Acting Like Godot]

Your problem is quite simple. You're moving too fast.

You don't have to. All you have to do is experiment at a pace that you're comfortable with. I do not know your personal circumstances, so I will just give a hypothetical example.

Suppose you have a job. There must be certain aspects about it that you don't like. Perhaps the hours are too long. Perhaps you find a few of your colleagues unfriendly. Perhaps you don't have the right skills and you find your work quite difficult.

You can start by experimenting with small little changes in your thoughts. For example, at the start of your workday, you set aside 5 minutes relaxing quietly and deliberately thinking a few positive thoughts. For example:

"If I work properly today, I should be able to finish by [ ] and go home. And as for my unfriendly colleague John, well, who knows ... Perhaps he has some personal problems and that's why he's so tense all the time. I shouldn't take it personally .... Oh, and that project. It's probably not that difficult, if I break it down step by step, and tackle one problem at a time."

After that, back to work.

If those thoughts are all you feel comfortable thinking, that's fine. There's no need to force yourself to think extremely or bizarrely positive thoughts which in fact you find quite unbelievable or hard to accept. For example, if it doesn't feel "right" to you, you don't have to visualise scenes where John is your best friend, and you finish all your work by 2 pm, and you are the top national expert in your industry. Don't bother.

Just reach for the more-positive thoughts, within the current range of thoughts which you subjectively accept to be "realistic".

Then watch your reality shift in response to your thoughts. Over time, you see that your reality DOES shift in response to your thoughts. This will pique your curiosity. You will wonder whether these shifts are just attributable to your own direct actions which arise consciously or subconsciously out of your own positive thoughts. Or whether there is something more magical at work ....

So go on experimenting. Slowly. Step by step. You'll see ......