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suchnessofmoment · 10-16-2008, 04:18 AM

Hi, I'm 23, male never been in a relationship, and a rather introverted person.For some time my loneliness took in my life life, I was depressed and throwing pity parties with myself. In order to distract myself from the painful lack of companionship, I turned into meditation. Even though I gained some valuable insights, I wasn't able to discipline myself to carry it out on a regular basis. The void of my life was filled by being an internet junkie. It was like feeding the hunger for human contact with high fructose corn syrup. This sense of false "high" consumed/( consumes) most of my spare time

I've had a lot of negative conditioning in my life about my personality with so I've always had a very close circle of friends. No one reaches out for me.

Even with my interaction with females, things just don't seem to proceed beyond making acquaintances and being regular friends

Now, I had a good look at my life and learned I wanted to change things.

I want to attract highly conscious and intellectually stimulating relationships to my life. I want to be loved.

I was thinking, "what's my current level of vibration which had made me attract the current circumstances?"-

My current level of vibration is one of lack- one that cries for love and attention. There are also tons of insecurities stemming from the feeling "there's not enough love to go around"- If one of my friends pay more attention to someone else there'd be less love towards me

Instead of this level, I shall unconditionally love people, try to feel and vibrate with the love of collective humanity which binds us all.

This is a difficult task because of all the inertia of my past negative feelings gravitate me towards feelings of loneliness whenever I'm off guard.

10-16-2008, 04:18 AM	#1 (permalink)
suchnessofmoment Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 15	Perspectives of lack of relationship Hi, I'm 23, male never been in a relationship, and a rather introverted person.For some time my loneliness took in my life life, I was depressed and throwing pity parties with myself. In order to distract myself from the painful lack of companionship, I turned into meditation. Even though I gained some valuable insights, I wasn't able to discipline myself to carry it out on a regular basis. The void of my life was filled by being an internet junkie. It was like feeding the hunger for human contact with high fructose corn syrup. This sense of false "high" consumed/( consumes) most of my spare time I've had a lot of negative conditioning in my life about my personality with so I've always had a very close circle of friends. No one reaches out for me. Even with my interaction with females, things just don't seem to proceed beyond making acquaintances and being regular friends Now, I had a good look at my life and learned I wanted to change things. I want to attract highly conscious and intellectually stimulating relationships to my life. I want to be loved. I was thinking, "what's my current level of vibration which had made me attract the current circumstances?"- My current level of vibration is one of lack- one that cries for love and attention. There are also tons of insecurities stemming from the feeling "there's not enough love to go around"- If one of my friends pay more attention to someone else there'd be less love towards me Instead of this level, I shall unconditionally love people, try to feel and vibrate with the love of collective humanity which binds us all. This is a difficult task because of all the inertia of my past negative feelings gravitate me towards feelings of loneliness whenever I'm off guard.