The feeling is extremely dis-empowering, there's no fear to it, lots of blood moves straight to the bottom of my stomach, & feels very heavy & random emptiness hits me. There is no voice to it, but if there was one it would say 'no, do something else'. The feeling adds a huge burden to me I do not understand why it is there. I'm going to try to persist through it, complete the work, & see what happens.
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