You really do have issues...as I said, alot like I do. We allow the mind to from 0 to 100 in no time for what ever uncontrolled reasons. BIG difference is you for whatever reason, you're scared, embrassed or whatever to speak up(to him)about what you're really going through.
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He asked me if it were his ex girlfriend again on my mind. I started in (like frigging automatic pilot) all my reasons that i felt he loved her more than me and that given that they have a baby between them i felt he will want to go back.
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It seems that you did it again on the phone, your 'automatic pilot' thing...and you weren't even able to 'fullly' discuss the underlying issue.
I'll tell you something just for right now he'll being kind and understanding,unless you really talk to him and you do eventually find that peace w/in yourself. Hell my bf would leave his work drive to mine just to give me a hug because I wasn't feeling well or because I was having one of one fits..he soon grew weary of my issues and less sensitive...I ended up like a broken record going in circles.
And honestly, have you considered that his past has 'nothing' to do with you? That it's not something for you to be comparing to or not to be harsh but it's almost none of your business what he did for his ex. He really doesn't need to explain anything to you about his past. And if he did love her more..so what..that's gone and in the past..
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That i am worthy of having him.... that he didn't consider his ex better than me. If he did he wouldn't have left her.
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And it's not who's better than who, her better than you, you better than her!!!!..no matter how much love was there between them obviously didn't keep him staying with her for another reasons...SHE could have been better in certain ways as YOU are better in others.. You're talking about two total different people her you got to quit comparing.
So..now he's with you, 'today' and that is all that matters..
Good luck and keep up w/ the positive attitude.