I used to have the same problem and still do, though not as strongly. I would have very nasty daydreams of being verbally abused, raped, or being in vicious arguments with people. I would actually act it out an argument, even in public and I would come out of it and see people staring at me, frightened. The look on people's faces made me realize this was serious. It turns out I have major depression with some psychosis. I would strongly suggest seeing a psychiatrist because acting out your daydreams is not normal. Maybe you need Risperdal. This is basically talking to yourself, which is not normal.
You were traumatized and crawled inside your mind. You have a rumination problem. Maybe you have Pure O, the obsessional wing of OCD. It will not change over night with a book or a comment, this was years in the making and will take months, maybe even years to change. In addition to the medicine, you NEED to do other things like read empowering books, meditate, and be on a diet/exercise program. Seriously. Not like "oh meditation sounds nice and soothing, I guess I'll try it and see." No you are ruining your entire life. There are people you see on the street talking to themselves who will be like that until the day they die. That is very possible. Do you want that to be you? You have to be vigilant all the time about these daydreams.
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